day 10

I'm realizing this is less of a "year-long experience for the hell of it" and more of a "thing i need to do to survive this life"

i'm thinking about going to my first AA meeting soon.

i'm now seeing this blog as less of a "oh let me write about the harrowing experience of sobriety" because quite frankly, it's boring.

i didn't have withdrawals because i was a binge drinker

i can't be at bars for more than 30 minutes without getting sad and lonely

consequently it's hard to be at my house when my roommates are drinking

i'm a lonely motherfucker.

and i feel like daniel is pulling back from me, i guess that's more a topic for the other blog. but he's taking on this air of "i've been sober for 10 years so here's my experience" when he's just as lost as me. am i projecting that? am i that insecure?

i dunno. not feeling very talkative tonight.